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Here is an iPad sketch I did thinkin' about my next painting. I don't know how clear it is but the red is the ocean and the grey is beach rocks.

It is symbolic of course of my friend that passed away. But also of life in Newfoundland. I miss the ocean and I miss my home but standing on those rocks sometimes you can feel all of the sadness and destruction that place can bring you. I will forever be attached to it and never escape it no matter how far away I move. It is a part of me and I am a part of it.

You can always go home but you can never leave.

<3Lenore

Grief

I borrowed my brother's camera to take some better quality photos of my artwork to create a good portfolio and begin approaching some galleries. Check out the new photos at my updated artist website! LenoreGale.com

Here is a painting I finished some time ago. I was unsure of it and am still unsure of it. I considered painting over it but a friend of mine told me he would be very sad if I did.

 

Untitled

Acrylic on canvas

I need to pick up some new canvases and some phthalo blue (the best blue - I go through that stuff like nothin' else). I am unsure what to be painting next but I do know I have more painting to do.

Painting is still one of the few things I enjoy doing. My grief is changing. I thought it would be over by now. Sometimes I feel like it is, but it in fact has become less apparent, still hidden deep within me somewhere. My moods are erratic, I don't enjoy things that I used to and I am a bit of a shut in. I worked for years to become a very happy and positive person no matter how stressful my life became but I feel like that is fading away. I am a different person from three months ago. But things are improving. Day by day I am returning to some normal semblance of a human being. The good weather is helping. I am hoping by summer I will be mostly repaired.

At least I have painting to soothe me. I just hope that the sadness and the art are not synonymous, that my art can exist without the sadness. Only time will tell, but I will not stop trying.

<3Lenore

I am a mess.

I came home tonight from work after a 15 hour shift on two hours of sleep. I have been belligerently exhausted for most of the evening and my plan was to go to sleep. I put on Sleigh Bells and with the music and the exhaustion an overwhelming urge to paint without boundaries came over me.

I rarely paint abstract anymore. I have tried to keep my work conceptual in the last few years, and though the portraits I have been making are not conceptual per say they are to me and follow a form as well.

I didn't even make the conscious decision to paint this. This painting made me paint it.  In an almost manic-like state this came out of me in an hour and I have absolutely no idea where it came from.

 I am a mess.
Acrylic on canvas
20"x20"

My life as of late has been personal issue after personal issue. I have been a mess. I think something in me just snapped. All the messiness and sadness in my life and the lives of the people closest to me had taken it's toll. And I am very pleased with the result.

Will I paint more abstract? I doubt it. Perhaps if I have more to get out suddenly. We shall see.

<3 Lenore

Painting updates

I am still painting. This one is yet untitled, I finished it last night. I was getting tired of portraits. While they were expressing something very specific that I needed to get out, for me personally portraits are far from the artistic expression I am trying to reach. So this is my most recent painting:

Acrylic
20"x20"

Now to update you on some past works. This one is part of the blue series it was finished some time ago.

Phony
Acrylic

And this last one I posted before, but I took a better picture and cropped it. It is also part of the blue series.

Liar
Acrylic

There are more which I will update in the future. I am going to try revisiting my artist statement soon and updating my website so I can create a portfolio and hit up some galleries.

The other day my roommate told me I need to stop painting my dead friend. I have six paintings with her in them now. We'll see. If it's working it's working, right?

<3 Lenore