Thursday, March 7, 2013

I am a mess.

I came home tonight from work after a 15 hour shift on two hours of sleep. I have been belligerently exhausted for most of the evening and my plan was to go to sleep. I put on Sleigh Bells and with the music and the exhaustion an overwhelming urge to paint without boundaries came over me.

I rarely paint abstract anymore. I have tried to keep my work conceptual in the last few years, and though the portraits I have been making are not conceptual per say they are to me and follow a form as well.

I didn't even make the conscious decision to paint this. This painting made me paint it.  In an almost manic-like state this came out of me in an hour and I have absolutely no idea where it came from.

 I am a mess.
Acrylic on canvas
20"x20"

My life as of late has been personal issue after personal issue. I have been a mess. I think something in me just snapped. All the messiness and sadness in my life and the lives of the people closest to me had taken it's toll. And I am very pleased with the result.

Will I paint more abstract? I doubt it. Perhaps if I have more to get out suddenly. We shall see.

<3 Lenore

18 comments:

  1. I have always admired artists who can paint abstracts as I just cannot get my head around it. I love all the movement and the beautiful colours Lenore.
    Am sorry you are going through a tough time and hope everything will soon get better.
    Annette x

    http://nettysartadventures.blogspot.co.uk/

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  2. Beautiful! So sorry it took sad times to create this but art does have a way of easing the pain, doesn't it? Keep putting one foot in front of the other and you will come out of this "cloud" soon. In the meantime, let your art carry you along.

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  3. Love that the painting made you paint it.
    Gorgeous palette.
    Hope that these tough times pass...
    ♥♥♥
    Happy PPF!!
    Mary
    Mixed-Media Map Art

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  4. There see that feelings come out when you let fly your amaginaciĆ³n lien on a blank zone. saludos

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  5. Painting is such a great way to free pent up emotions within us..I always feel better after I have painted my emotions away too..happy ppf and hoping your situation improves this week

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  6. Hi Lenoracle - I just saw you left a comment on another blog and I realised I hadn't seen you for the longest time at PPF. I used to be Pointypix and recently had a blog makeover. Glad to have found you again. I'm sorry things are so turbulent for you right now but it seems to have done your art no harm - this is a great abstract piece and all those churned up feelings you've been having seem to be there in every brushstroke.

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  7. Wonderful abstract, love the layers of color and texture. HPPF!

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  8. It is a bugger that things have been messy lately but at least you have this wonderful piece of work out of it... the textures and colours are so full of energy... it is quite glorious...xx

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  9. sometimes it just feels good to paint, like a good cry. beautifuls abstract, wonderful depth of color. If the painting made you paint it, it sure knew what it was doing! hppf!

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  10. It is luscious!!!
    Love the colors and the dreamy texture1

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  11. Beautiful abstract. I like the colors. and it does not look like mess for me:) but I know how you feel. I wish you feel better soon and definitely have some rest. Big hug to you.

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  12. Wow your guts are on the page in such a gorgeous way!! I did a room these colors in the eighties...it would have been perfect. They are in again!! Love it!!

    Oh I feel you about being a mess....I have been the same...it's those around me too....everyone is suffering something devastating crisis...and I feel it so deeply. It drains every bit of energy I have...Oh I hope you find some solace in your creativity...and alone time!! If only you could shut down your mind on command!!

    Feel better soon!

    Hugs Giggles

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  13. This is a really beautiful mess though. I hop you manage to get a little less exhausted soon :)

    Sarah @ A Cat-Like Curiosity

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  14. Very luminous piece, love the brush work and colors! Good for you letting pain out on the canvas, and feeling good about the result. It's a beautiful piece! <3

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  15. Painting freely and getting in touch with pure color and movement is very healing. Perhaps you had to be exhausted to break down resistance to such freedom. Very powerful mess -- the colors and contrasts make it so lively!

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  16. I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I hope you art helps you.

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  17. What wonderful therapy for hard times. I hope the tides turn soon and your life gets on a more even keel. The art created out of chaos is most beautiful!

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